If you have ever had the pleasure of suffering a migraine headache than you know just how daunting the word chronic in front of migraines really is. After the last year and a half my battle with fibromyalgia has finally gotten as "under control" as it could ever really be. I have a wonderful new doctor who is a specialist in Fibromyalgia who has really been able to help me. I am stronger and feeling better than I have in a very, very, long time. But when it rains it pours, and I'm now fighting an even tougher battle. At my lowest point this last year or so, I really didn't think things could get any worse. I was wrong.

I found this photo on Flicker posted by Migraine Chick

What I love about this photo is that most people would look at it and think; this is what it feels like to have a migraine. I look at this photo and think, this is what I would like to do to myself to relieve the pain of my migraine. I often feel like I want to bang my head against a wall when I have a migraine. It’s quite intense and lately it’s been overwhelming.

A few days ago I was researching on the internet looking for descriptions of what Fibromyalgia pain feels like. As I read peoples descriptions of their pain I thought to myself how lucky I was to not feel as bad as they seamed to be.  I was at a loss for words myself to describe what it felt like.  Now that I am in my 4th day of a bad flare up I realized that I do feel that much pain.  Just not all of the time.  It's easy to forget how bad you felt when your feelibg better but it's also nice to realize how much better you where feeling when your feeling worse.

When I went to see my doctor before thanksgiving he told me that the weird migraine I had was either a Hemiplegic Migraine, which mimics a stroke or I had a stroke and either way a Hemiplegic Migraine increases my chance of stroke. I hadn’t talked about it and so therefore had not processed the thought as that is how I process things by talking. Right before my panic attack I was talking with my friend about it and when I was running I was thinking about it and that’s when I got a really bad anxiety attack. I didn’t realize what caused it until I started to talk about it again and it got worse. Not to mention I was already under a great deal of stress from lots of other things.